Seems weird

I know I'm being selfish.  But its my last request, if this really plays thought.  If something does not change my mind.  I'll be gone.  I know others will miss me and I know how it will feel already.  Counting down the days seems harder and harder. . . To know how others feel, Sympathy for others. . .  But in time I know they will learn to deal with it. Thinking if it was just 10 days left. . . made me feel so much pain, knowing there is so little left.  But when I think about it I would be happy, truly happy. I don't know why, Maybe it is what I truly want?