Fasting for 7 days.

So today is my third day of fasting sorta. Eh I like weight 125 when I started, three days ago. Now I'm 121, when I last checked. So If I'm losing like 2 pounds a day. . . . By this Sunday I'll be . . . 119 pounds. . . I think that's a little to much weight to lose. . .

Good things are LOL I'm not hungry any more, I have nice Abs!!! lmao I'll have to gain all my weight back to 135. . . = = = = = = = = = = =  Masssssssss eating can't wait!!!!!!!! I have already set up plans to cook. and out to eat!!!! any one want to join?

The Way I feel, [MV] G.NA - I Miss You Already

 This is How i have been feeling. . . Seems like my heart seems to be always in pain. . . Its really annoying. . I hope, i really Hope it fails on me soon.  If I could only end my own heart. How happy I would of been If i was. . .

I must have more tears than I thought
How could it be like this
I let you go while smiling then
I’m not like other girls
I can’t be too cunning like them
I can’t meet anyone else
Because I can only think of you  You don’t have to listen to my nagging anymore
But you can’t become skinnier than you are now
Please make sure you eat
What should I do ? I keep missing you
I miss being in your arms already
I still like you
Why did we separate ?
Maybe you feel the same way I do
Maybe you’re also crying
I hope you feel pain just like I do
And come back to me again
You must be living like nothing’s happened
I can understand that
In a way, that suits you better
You said I was number one on your speed dial
Over time, it will be filled
by other girlfriend’s numbers
What should I do ? I keep missing you
I miss being in your arms already
I still like you
Why did we separate ?
Maybe you feel the same way I do
Maybe you’re also crying
I hope you feel pain just like I do
And come back to me again
We used to spend the night talking (those stories)
You used to want to be with me always (that promise)
I tried to erase them but it’s not working well
Foolishly, my tears keep coming
Already I want to go find you
You’re starting to forget me already
So why can’t I do the same
No, you’re the same as me
Please tell me that’s the situation
Come back to me, please come back
Stop hurting now
Just one day by my side

Fast to the end?

 Maybe an End?

To start to fast again this time.  Lets see if i can finish seven days. . . Had to see her this weekend? I should just stayed home. . . she looked really cute. . . adorable. . . Sexy. . . I just feel like it should all end. . . And I should leave it at that. . . Should I truly let my self be truly happy?  And stop caring about others? 

I heard that at one point you wanted this to happen. . . but it has not happened yet. . . How long do I need to wait. . . How many years have I been thinking and wanting this. . . Maybe in Seven days I will find out. :-/  

I wonder If she ever got the letter I wrote her?  Yet the pain never seems to stop hurting regarding her.

How annoying, The pain, how it seems to never stop.  Fing feelings. So annoying. . But it really seems like there is nothing,  I'll have to deal with a lot more shit soon, more reason to grow? or more reason to end it all.  I know what she means now, from when she said I'm way to emotional. the pain. . .